uh oh.
My sub runs out soon.

Oh well.


Why haven't I been doing any art as of late?
Don't feel like it. I think i've completely lost my "want" to do anything art-wise anymore.
Sucks.

I've had ideas, I just can't bring myself to do it.

*fails*.



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I hate how everyone is complaining about this "glitch" that gets "crappy" art on the front page.

I think it's great that the little guys are getting a change to show what they can do even if it is "less than good".
It's jealousy is all it is, all these people think "wtf I can do better than that, why am I not up there" so they complain. Or they're greedy and only want to see the best of the best.
I don't know about you but that gets boring to me.

It's based on number of views, apparently.
If that deviation got enough views for it to be on the front page in the first place, than it should be there.

I'm not sure how it works, so I could be wrong and it could just be a random glitch. But thats what I've heard.
Even still, though, I think it's nice to see something other than the same amazing artists up there.
I like it showing -all- the different levels of art in this community, not just the popular ones.

I personally don't want to be on the front page, as I fucking hate attention like that. I'd never wanna draw anymore because people would be looking for it all the time. heh.

Speaking of which, I cancled my commissions on Gaia and closed my shop for good.
FREE!!!!!!!!

Now I can do art of who I want, when I want and how I want without preasure.
<3<3<3



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I really need to get drawing again.
heh....

My desk is still brokin...making it annoying for me to do any art.
n' any art I do come out will will probably suck do it this issue >: O

My sisters wedding went awesomely well.
I found out my relatives look at this site.
I was embarassed.

*twitches*



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Sup doods.

I actually like the look of this new layout. It's nice.


I want to thank everyone who helped me out , whether it was ordering a commission, or just lending me your support. It helped alot, guys. So thank you so much.

My dad is doing -alot- better now. and it's funny, you see now how bad he looked before his heart attack, when you didn't notice and just thought he was aging badly or something.
He looks like a million bucks now XD

My sister is getting married in like 3 weeks. Aug 26th and I still don't have my brides maid dress, as I haven't been called by the woman making it. Apparently i'm supposed to go this week for fitting number two.
Isn't it cutting this a bit too short here? I think so.

I can't find any fucking sliver sandalish shoes for the wedding either.
I have weird feet, they're not big, about a size 8, but they're wide+thick, so....NOTHING ins a size 8 will fit over the top of my foot, but size 9's will no problem....
but then I have like an inche of shoe left where my toes are supposed to be.


Sonofabitch.



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As stated in my last journal entry, my father had two majour heart attacks.
His IS doing better now, unfortunatly it's left us in a huge gutter when it comes to finacial issues, as he wont be able to work for 6 months.

My parents were already behind to begin with. Living paycheque to paycheque.
Now it's to the point where we may lose the house.
We're getting rid of the internet and cable, probably sometime next week.

Although i'm not 100% "healthy" yet, this means I need to find work SOMEWHERE, ANYWHERE.
I'm trying to do all I can to help pay bills, as I know damn well my brother wont care enough to help.

I'm going to start taking commissions for real money.
I have -alot- of commissions to do on Gaia, and I'm hoping that thoes people understand that I need to put them on the back burner for a while.

I know i'm not the best artist, and I don't expect alot.
But anything will help me.

I don't have paypal, but Jason does. So I will probably be using his account.
I also take cheques.... Cash in the mail...ANYTHING

I'm not putting any amount on my art, as I honestly don't know what to charge.
So, if you'd like to commission me, please send me a note ( or PM if you're reading this from Gaia).

Thank you guys so much.

~Boo

EDIT******************************
Okay, I called and got my password back for my own Paypal, this way I wont have to use Jasons.
Send commission money to    TheSadistBoo@hotmail.com
Thanks, again.
<3



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This morning, my father had two heart attacks, both were serious.
If my mother hadn't have gotten him to the hospital in time, he'd be dead right now.

He's only 54.
I'm still in shock.

I'm close to my dad. He's one of the most awesome people you'd ever meet. Everyone loves him.
I can't imagine life without him.

I know that someday he will go, as everyone must at some point.
But I want him to be at my graduation.
I'd like him to walk me down the aisle.
Hold my first born...etc.

They ended up putting a stunt (I think it's called) in where the blockage in his artery was, to hold it open.
Apparently it was 100% blocked.

Right now we're just waiting to see if his body will accept it.



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No,
I'm really not.

Actually i'm pretty boring.
But anyway...

Holy crap my health has been shitty as of late.
I mean, more shitty than usual.
I couldn't sleep all weekend. Like at all. Literally. I'd try..and fail.
First time I actually got some sleep was last night, and even that was horrible. I had dreams the whole night. So I tossed and turned.
Fuckers.

I'm in computer repair and maintenence now.
It's a decent class. It's funny because I go in there and already know most of what he talks about.
I blame this on Jason. He's turning me into a geek.
GEEK. D: D: D:

But yea...it'll be nice to know how to do all this computer shizz without having to call him. :3

I need to finish my English. Two maths and Two more random credits after this class, and i'll finally get my Highschool diploma.
Wooo.

My sisters wedding in Aug 26th. I think I already mentioned this. I'm a brides maid.
I wouldn't have a problem...if I didn't need to wear a dress. If you know me, than you know that Boo doesn't do dresses.
The upset is that we can choose any style/design we want. It just has to be Navy.

I LEARNED TO KNIT.
OMG.
Don't laugh at me.
Jerks.



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Awr....
:3

Kuroboom randomly bought me a years sub!
Thank you so much <3<3<3

ILU. XD


I have alot of stuff to upload, but i've been so lazy.
Don't hate me?

I started questing for NM mini wings on Gaia.
DONATE TO MEEEEE. I'll luff you 4eva.

mwa haha...

yea.....



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Y helo thar.

I'm still here, i've just been...lazy.
XD

Milk died last Friday. D: So I have NO rats at this time. Which is odd for me, because for as long as I can remember...i've always had at least one.
So yea...i'm left with two Degus and a bunch of fish. XD

Not much to report...
I started school again to get my grade 12
It's alot better than I had thought it would be, and it's quite enjoyable. :3
I gt 76% on my Midterm...which is awesome for me. Bahaha.

My brother is causing my family a great deal of stress. It's horrible.
My parents don't know what to do anymore. He's gone to live with my sister in Oakville for a little while.

Matthew Good is playing in London at The Drink again on Oct 22. Aaron, Cassy, Jason and I are all thinking about taking a trip down.

Hopefully I can have the car that weekend.



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My sub expires in like three days.
D:

I don't have the money for another one. o.o
Oh well.

Anyone have a computer desk they don't want? >.>
I need one so bad. XD
I need to gut my room BIG time. It's a fucking mess.

Still looking for a job. I figure i'll have better luck mid/late Augest, when all the kiddies are going back to school and such.

I'll update later...i'm too drained to tyyypppee...D:

Boo



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I made it to 19k XD
Woo.

Chubbs died on the 10th.


I've got to rant.

Because I find things out late, and they piss me off. And i'm already in a bad mood to start with.

I have a boyfriend of which is semi fucked in the head right now.
It's a long story, so i'll stick it into weird point form that leaves ALOT out. XD

Last summer
Boys mom hates boys girlfriend.
Boy is afraid of his mother.
Boy lies to both mother and girlfriend because boy is scared of everything.
Boy lies to girlfriend to hurt her so she'll break up with HIM so he doesn't have to do it himsef,because he still loves her.
Boy lies to mother so he can keep coming to see GF.
Boy lies to friends to keep his mother from finding out.
Everything is a confused fucked up mess.
Gf finally finds out he's been lying, calls boys mother, the lie comes out.
Boy leaves for college.
Boy brings gf to college with him. Wont let her leave due to being scared of her leaving for good.
GF finds out boy lied to friends, makes him write an apology email.
Things go uphill.
Things are great.

This summer
Boys mother screams at boy for being with GF because apparently she's 'evil'.
Boy lies again and pretends to break up with GF.
This time GF knows about it.
Boy lies to mother to stay with GF.
Boy lies to GF when he wants to do stuff he thinks GF will hate.
Boy lies to friends AGAIN.
GF finds out.
Boy writes apology letter to friends for lying.
Things start getting better with Boy and GF.
Things are rocky, but okay.


This has been going on for the past year.

But you know what pisses me off more than the scared Boy and his lies?
The friends who, after already been lied to before about this, believe boy...and turn their noses up at GF.
It makes me sick. Just completely sick to my stomach.

I go to them for help. I explain what goes on. And yet, when he sits there..and lies to their faces, they'd much rather believe a penis, than that penises heart-broken girlfriend.

All of them make up excuses not to believe me. They all have their own agendas for "helping me". They claim to care and be there for me.
And then they go and stab me in the fucking back because my man happens to have a pair of huge beautiful brown eyes.

I explain everything to them. The sick twisted disgusting lies and things he has done , and what do they do?
"Aww, poor boy. You must me so pained."

Oh yea. He's in SO much pain.
Because you know, i'm the fucking liar here, right?
I'm the one that lied before about this shit, right?
Anyone who knows me, even just a LITTLE bit, knows that I HATE lies. I hate them with a passion.
And i'd NEVER lie to ANYONE, let alone my fucking friends.

And this is what makes me sick. They know this, yet they turn their backs on me. And make me the bad guy.
Because he's someone to flirt with.

And yes, I stay with him.
He's made me paranoid (with good reason to be) but i'm working on that. It's something I can't just get over.

I stay with him because as stupid as he was/is being, we are in love with eachother and we are happy together.
I'm trying to help him with everything I have. All of my being. He was there for me EVERY fucking step when I was ill. So ill I rarely left the house for a whole fucking year.
And I'm giving him back what he gave me.
Support.

He still lies about stupid little things, but no where near what he did before. (Which I will not go into.)

That's what love is.
It's not about looks. It's not about what cloths people wear,or how well someone can do something.Its' not about butterflies dancing around in your stomach when they touch you.
It's about loving eachother. It's about being there for eachother and helping eachother when they need it most.
It's about forgiveness.

You don't know what true love is untill you've experienced it through the worst of times.
Untill you've been through the roughest time of your life with that person and you come out together. No matter how long it takes.
That is what love is.

No, I don't want people to hate Boy. I've never wanted anyone to hate him ,that was never the point of talking.
He's an amazing, smart guy that makes really stupid choices, and I love him.
I'm in love with him.
When I come to people to talk, it's to vent and just talk. Not to push opinions.
All I want is some place to go when I'm in need of help. Your friends are supposed to be that place.
I want people to listen and not take sides. And just BE there for me.

But, I suppose that was way too much to ask.



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INSIDE JOKE'D

XD

It's pissing rain.
So, of course I went out and stood in it, and jumped in puddles.
Because I rock like that.
Woot.

I'm mad at Pat.
Thats right Pat. I'm mad.
Because you weren't working when Jason and I came to see you.
Jerk.

Oh well, we got a Kit-kat out of the whole trip. So it's all good.

I'm still looking for a job.
I hope to get one soon. And hopefully i'll be able to attened Joannas MARRAGE
First friend to get married. Heee.
And apparently Ben is going to ask his chick to marry him.
I didn't even know they were still dating o.o;

So it's summer time, and all the thin people are wearing as little clothing as possible.
Which is alright, as long as it's tastefull/un-skanky.

Here is a tip for all your "beauty/whats-on-the-outside will make them like me" people...

If you don't have the personality of which your little crush is looking for?
You're doomed before you try.

Because honestly...it's easier to love a 'not so goodlooking' person with an amazing personality,and makes you laugh and feel good about yourself, than it is to date a model who reminds you for a block of wood when it comes to personality.

It's all about the laughing, people. Let that sink in.

And then, of course, there are thoes who'd actually TRY to CHANGE THEMSELVES for another person. Which is just sad.
And fake. You can tell when someones trying to be someone they're not.

Sigh.

Thats Boo's tip for the day. XD

Now, off to hope that bad-luck doesn't follow me around this week.
D:



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First,
I'd like to thank ~LordPook for his awesomeness. He sent me Painter 7.
Now I just have to figure out how to use the damn thing.
o.o
If anyone has any tutorials, it'd be awesome if you sent them my way XD

Second..
WHAT THE FUCK.

Is it -really- that hard to -ask- someone to use their art? Seriously.
A friend pointed out someone on one of thoes "goth" sites who has my 'Play things of the dead' picture in thier profile.
It's got a watermark running right through  the stupid thing, But she has the pic small enough so you can't make out the writing.

I've signed upto the site and noted her, But she hasn't been on since then. And that was like last week. ugh.

ANYWAY,
If anyone see's any of my art anywhere OTHER than the places i'm about to list, PLEASE contact me?

Gaia, either on my account or people i've drawn for.
Diaryland: Should only be on my diary.
Here.
Sheezyart.
Vampirefreaks: Only on my page.
MySpace: Only on my page.

Thoes are the only place that should have my art. And only on my profiles. (excpet Gaia avatars)

THIRD;
I wish people weren't so ignorant, and would talk to my face, instead of behind my back.
Because, you know, whining complete bullshit about me is very mature.  
Idiots.

I swear i'm put on this earth so people can use me to make themselves feel better, by way of lies and insults.
Which is disgusting and extremely sad.

Wow, it's like living a certain highschool situation all over again.
And we all know how that ended.


In better news.
Jason and I are doing a bit better.
And by a bit, I mean..a bit. o.o
But we're doing it. There is only one thing stopping us from advancing.
But we're working on that.

I so just jynxed the hell out of that.
I'll probably like...die or something tonight.
D:

I'm currently looking for a part-time nightshift job. XD
I've put out some applications, and i'm going to put out more this week.
Wish me luck.

~Boo



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Ugh,
Everytime I write in this journal, something bad happens. It's like..jynxed or something.

And here I am, writing an entry.
Hooray!

So some horrid things have happened as of late, with the man and I.
It's been really rough, and our friends have been unfortunate enough to be dragged into it. In a bad way.
Though, I did tell them truth. Hopefully they see it now. And hopefully they can forgive both him and Myself.
We've both been crazy with emotions. So..it sucks.
He told me he sent out emails explaining some things, and I got clarification(sp?) from one of the people he had sent it too.
So I suppose I feel a bit better.
I'm still scared, though, that he'll do it again, due to his inablity to handle disagreeing with people/massive fear of conflict.
But I wont go into that.

I went for a walk today. This morning, rather.
Just upto my old elementary school.
I was up at around 5 and couldn't sleep or stay in my room anymore. I have so much stress and worry built up , that I had to do something about it.
So I walked.
While I was walking, I came across a cat playing with a feild mouse. I was able to go upto the mouse and pet it's head. So..it obviously was in shock.
But before I could grab it, to put it somewhere safe, the cat nabbed it and ran off.


I called Jason, and he came and picked me up and we went for breakfast at Tim Hortans.
Usually, for the past couple weeks, it's been stressful everytime we get together.
But this morning was actually fun. We went for a drive around town, and we laughed. More than we have in a while.

The lady who took our order at the drive-thru sounded dead. It was fucking awesome.

I'm currently on the look-out for a part time job. Hopefully I can find something.
I haven't been to the Humain Society in 2 weeks, due to the shit thats going on.
Maybe i'll go today, if I can.
Maybe...





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o.o;

It's been a long time, huh?
Miss me?

Probably not.


I've actually been working on a couple things. Hopefully I can upload one of them tomorrow. XD

I wonder if anyone still visits my account...o.o;

Anyway, to thoes who actually do. I apologise for...not..being here. O.O

Mwaaaa....
*death*



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So...

Today I started my JOB!
Oh yea I didn't tell you...
I GOT A JOB.
But....


Volunteer at the Humain Society. XP
It's sad to see how many cats they get in. Not many dogs..about 6 or 7...but during the summer they get about 120 cats. o.o

If you're not ready to own a pet, don't fucking buy one.

Anyway, I get to spend time with thecats. I signed up for play therapist for now, because i'm not sure what i'm capible of at this point.
Baby steps..

I also get to spend time with the smaller animals that come in. They have about 5 rabbits. And 6 baby rats. *dies*
What alot of people don't realise is that they can go to the Human Society for smaller animals as well as bigger. They think it's just for Cats and Dogs.

So next time any of you are planning on getting a smaller animal, check out the Humain Society.
Getting an animal from there is awesome because as soon as people drop them of to the shelter, they're taking to a vet to make sure they're alright. And if they need meds, and you buy the animal, they give you the meds they're one free of charge.
Plus, from experience...all the animals i've ever adopted (which is alot) whether it be from friends or the HS, seem to what your love so much more than ones from the pet store, even when they've been abused. Now i'm not saying -alot- of them are like that. But out of all the ones i've had, i've not adopted one that hasn't absolutly loved attention and you, the first time they see you.
Even Beeboo and Milk are now jumping up and wanting to be petted when I enter my room.
It's cute to see fat round balls of furr bouncing around XD

That said...
I'm off.



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